Finally Revealing My Secret | NikkieTutorials: Layers Of Me

After being blackmailed, Nikkie takes control as she prepares for her powerful coming out video, but behind the scenes she is battling with telling her closest friend the truth.
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  • If anyone is looking at you while you're out and about it's because you're so pretty 💖

    BreeeBreeePrije 4 sati
  • Linda is an amazing friend. She’s awesome wow 🥺💓

    Marina_ 88Marina_ 88Prije 5 sati
  • Such a beautiful Soul 🥰

    Heraputea PetersHeraputea PetersPrije 11 sati
  • You’re truly inspiring 🙌🏼

    Adelaide JimenezAdelaide JimenezPrije 14 sati
  • What a blessing ♥️

    Danielle VictoriaDanielle VictoriaPrije 14 sati
  • WOW! Nikki you are an inspiration for everyone! You have so much to give the world because of your story. Congratulations to us all.

    Cat LadyCat LadyPrije dan
  • i was suppose to go to bed an hour ago and Now I'm here on episode 4! whoops!!

    Lisa KuhleLisa KuhlePrije dan
  • Ive been following you from the beginning and your the same nikki to me I LOVE YOU!!! Xoxo

    Jeanny NonhJeanny NonhPrije dan
  • Nem sei se você vai ler meu comentário, mas preciso dizer que foi emocionante e forte demais assistir a esse documentário Nikkie! Parabéns por quem você se tornou e aonde você chegou. Sempre admirei seu trabalho e depois desse documentário, te admiro ainda mais. ❤️👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

    Miralva FernandesMiralva FernandesPrije dan
  • The only thing this changes for me is how deeply my compassion for your experience extends, how astonished I am by your courage, and how much I hope my little girls grow up to be just like you. Thank you, you beautiful sister.

    Anna FrancesAnna FrancesPrije dan
  • I found you, related to u, but when you came out with this secret it felt like being lied to. Not as if you owe some subscriber but it's like damn what else don't we know.

    tiggz Rtiggz RPrije dan
  • I love you I don't what to say I cried so much

    Alina & VanAlina & VanPrije 2 dana
  • Nikkie thank you for telling your story and educating those of us who didn’t understand myself included. You sweetheart are beautiful inside and out. Thank you!❤️ I think I’m more shocked that you speak another language because your English is spot on!😂 I love you girl!🥰

    Dawn CrawfordDawn CrawfordPrije 2 dana
  • I am sad. She could have had a stealth life. But someone didn't allow her to hide her physical past, so she will be the "transwomen" for the rest of her life. That's not fair. I know many will say positive things like "she was always a women", and that's sweet. But as she already said: up to know her life will be framed, and everyone's impression about her will be influenced by the information "she was a boy". That's not fair. And I know what I am talking about. I wish I ever had the change to pass. But I came out in my late 30ies and couldn't afford ffs. Life can be so cruel.

    Johanna LangnerJohanna LangnerPrije 2 dana
  • Wait... Was Nikki born a boy? I can't find any information about it.

    DevynnDevynnPrije 2 dana
    • Yes, she was born male but biology made a little mistake. She was assigned male at birth, but she identifies as a woman :)

      Moortje MalenaarMoortje MalenaarPrije 2 dana
  • I love nikki so much she is such a strong beautiful independent and brave women and she deserves the world

    Bella BrenchleyBella BrenchleyPrije 3 dana
  • Je bent een prachtige mens❤️😘🤗

    Kathy ForoutanKathy ForoutanPrije 3 dana
  • I was born female and I present myself as female. In this video when you said "Did i lie? well yeah" that's not true. You didn't lie because you are female, you present as a woman and you have for way longer than you were ever male and honestly it doesn't matter that you were born male, you ARE a woman. You don't owe anybody anything because your life is yours to live, your truth is yours and no one understands it the way that you understand. You're beautiful!!

    Rachael JohnstonRachael JohnstonPrije 3 dana
  • You're so Strong...never put your head down

    Amy MonsonAmy MonsonPrije 3 dana
  • It doesn´t matter with gender you are Nikkie you are yourself

    VeraVeraPrije 3 dana

    mya westmya westPrije 3 dana
  • Nikkie you are so beautiful and amazing and even before all of this you served as an icon in my life and someone to watch when I needed comfort and make-up tips and help. You're so amazing please never stop being you ❤️

    Josiah HendricksJosiah HendricksPrije 3 dana
  • I love listening to her talk.

    casandra rosscasandra rossPrije 3 dana
  • Thank you for sharing your story 💛

    jessiejfan23jessiejfan23Prije 3 dana
  • Ik heb je altijd gezien als een grappige, intelligente, mondige en knappe vrouw. Wie kan het schelen dat je vroeger een ander geslacht had. You go girl. Wees een voorbeeld voor anderen. Ik heb niets dan respect voor jou.

    Joy HJoy HPrije 4 dana
  • I’ve never thought I’d say this to a person who I didn’t know much except the talent you shows us. Nikki, you don’t owe anything to us. You’re an amazing lady! You deserve every beautiful thing in the world ❤️

    Mary Charlotte Ann BautistaMary Charlotte Ann BautistaPrije 4 dana
  • I love you Nikki. You’ve always been a woman ❤️

    Shannon TrujilloShannon TrujilloPrije 4 dana
  • You posted this on my bi coming out anniversary! Congrats on sharing your full self with the world :) I can't wait to see what you do next

    Anthony DAnthony DPrije 4 dana
  • I'm sorry, your story is absolutely inspiring but can we please talk about the PROFESSIONALISM of this documentaries, its so well constructed i loved that fourth wall(?) break with Linda, amazing

    kafukashikafukashiPrije 4 dana
  • ❤️

    Jule StraubJule StraubPrije 4 dana
  • Not the power of makeup, the power of me! 💯👏👏👏🥰

    Laura GeistLaura GeistPrije 4 dana
  • Mss is dit een late reactie maar ik hou van jou Nikkie! Toen ik je zag bij wie is de mol dacht ik OMG YES NIKKIEEEEE!!!! En nu ben je open voor iedereen en iedereen houd nogsteeds van jou💋😘

    Esmée BerloEsmée BerloPrije 4 dana
  • Echt nikki i love youuus so much

    Hgvvv gchgfvvHgvvv gchgfvvPrije 5 dana
  • She's 100% female when she saw that rabbit and got so excited that's when i knew she was a girl...

    Betty PickleBetty PicklePrije 5 dana
  • You are a wonderful woman, a wonderful humam being. You inspire me, and i wish you a happy and full of love life

    Ana Carolina Neubaner DuqueAna Carolina Neubaner DuquePrije 5 dana
  • Absolutely inspiring!!!

    Almein SimoesAlmein SimoesPrije 5 dana
  • Well, I am definitely looking at you different...I'm looking at you as the bravest woman and fighter ever. I'm so happy for you are living in your truth. Keep shining!

    Mercedes Famous ScreenwritingMercedes Famous ScreenwritingPrije 5 dana
  • I love this series I cry every time I can't wait till you and Dylan have your happy ever after

    Nancy MerchantNancy MerchantPrije 5 dana
  • Just want to say Nikki - I have been following for awhile and I cannot see you any other way but as "Nikki" that's who I have always known you as and that hasn't changed even with you sharing this. That's who you introduced yourself as and that's who I have always looked up to. When you made the video it was emotional to see your pain but in a way I'm like "and..?" It doesn't change anything or how I look at you- in my head I'm like let's get back to the makeup! :) I appreciate how you did it for yourself and didn't want to make it everyone's business because it's not. Loved you then, love you now, nothings changed. I don't look at u any different. :)

    Madelynn SkajewskiMadelynn SkajewskiPrije 5 dana
  • Yeeessss girl!! You are super awesome ❤️

    Menalda GroeneveldMenalda GroeneveldPrije 5 dana
  • Nikki ik vind je geweldig

    Claudia BronsteijnClaudia BronsteijnPrije 6 dana
  • 😍😍😍

    Benthe van DijkBenthe van DijkPrije 6 dana
  • respect

    Rosanne VeldboerRosanne VeldboerPrije 6 dana
  • I’ve watched so many of Nikkis videos This is the first episode I watched , I went back and watched the first one again, an amazing story told by a beautiful woman🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

    leah brownleah brownPrije 6 dana
  • This is so moving. I am moved to tears. I thank you for being you and helping people to understand what this process is like for others. ❤

    X KnightX KnightPrije 6 dana
  • Omg Nikki I love u u are awesome ... Amazing 😍😍😍🤩😍🤩⭐👑⭐

    Mann SharmaMann SharmaPrije 6 dana
  • I know its none of our business but im super curious as to what Dillions reaction was when she told him! I do want to say that she is one of the strongest people I have ever seen!! For her to make that video had to have been so beyond scary!! ❤❤❤

    Kimmy BallKimmy BallPrije 6 dana
  • Such a Darling🥰😍

    Maria JosephMaria JosephPrije 7 dana
  • Omg your bestfriend ❤ love her That's what a bestfriend should do same as your real supporters. Anyone else doesn't matter are people you don't need in your life

    Bere garciaBere garciaPrije 7 dana
  • I ❤ u nikkie

    NARA Qiem tanNARA Qiem tanPrije 7 dana
  • I think it’s absolutely disgusting and vile that someone would blackmail her about something this sensitive. This was none of our business and Nikkie would tell us when she is and was ready.

    Alissa HabachiAlissa HabachiPrije 7 dana
  • I was in tears 😭😭😭 it's a amazing I just starting transitioning last year and it's been hard but I made it and Nicki you are changing our community

    Breanna HoneycuttBreanna HoneycuttPrije 7 dana
  • Nikkie's best friend is truly an amazing person, she didn't even feel betrayed despite the fact that Nikkie hid the truth from her for such a long time. She's so lucky for having such a great best friend.

    Crisa LisCrisa LisPrije 7 dana
  • It's so sad that she has to feel like she has to apologize for not telling anyone. She really doesn't. We love you Nikkie.

    Kenna NdirKenna NdirPrije 8 dana

    Tara Pelaccio EllisTara Pelaccio EllisPrije 8 dana
  • I LoVE YOU Nikie 💕💕💕💕💕

    Ian GoIan GoPrije 8 dana
  • I just wanted to say this is the first video I’ve seen of your vlog, and 1) your mother is GORGEOUS, 2) I LOVED watching your first video morph into you now, and 3) your voice is like HONEY and I love you to pieces, thank you for your ray of sunshine in this world!!

    Tasha CharnetzkyTasha CharnetzkyPrije 8 dana
  • Nikkie, you will always be Nikkie! A beautiful woman that does incredible make up 🥰

    Claire BeeClaire BeePrije 8 dana
  • Big props to mom 💕 She let her daughter be herself. She's wonderful!

    Claire BeeClaire BeePrije 8 dana
  • Linda is such a wonderful friend!

    Tran TranTran TranPrije 8 dana
  • OMG NikkieTutorials I have been watching you since I first found youtube and makeup tutorials and you inspired me and made really explore and find my love for makeup. You are a amazing person! your so strong and this coming out story is so sad but also you didn't have to be scared for one second because everyone that truly mattered and truly understood was was gonna continue to love and adore you for you and your work!. THANK YOU FOR BEING SO BRAVE AND THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU! MWAH XXXXX Also I've watched every single one of your videos and ive now got my own youtube channel which im gonna to juts have fun and explore and create. lots of love LGBTQ+ COMMUNITY LOVE

    Jae LempriereJae LemprierePrije 8 dana
  • I am pretty sure most of us including myself, keep seeing you as Nikkie, a strong independent woman, You are amazing and so strong we are very proud of you

    Andrea SalazarAndrea SalazarPrije 8 dana
  • Thank you thank you thank u.....for sharing EVERYTHING..u inspire me more and more

    KoreAn AKoreAn APrije 8 dana
  • so so many tears....

    D'Arcy JaneD'Arcy JanePrije 9 dana
  • we love u 🤍🤍🤍🤍🌷

    Jessica TavaresJessica TavaresPrije 9 dana
  • You are a beautiful person inside and out. ❤ This world could use somr more of the unwavering love and support that your mom and best friend have for you. It's amazing. You are amazing.

    Druvis GerritsDruvis GerritsPrije 9 dana
  • Nikkie was a born a woman. She was just trapped in the wrong body, now she is the most beautiful woman and queen ever!💕🤍🖤

    DD ODD OPrije 9 dana
  • proud of you

    agvi13agvi13Prije 9 dana
  • That was probably the hardest decision to keep to yourself... I already thought you were wonderful but now knowing the whole story I think you're even more wonderful! Just be you 100% and never look back your past your past you're nothing but your future and it's okay to just look forward and it's okay to just be who you are no matter what it is... There's nothing wrong with any of us the only thing that we need to stop doing is judging one another we don't know each other stories we all Harbor secrets about ourselves! It's okay to just be ourselves you're a beautiful woman and you're Perfect Just the Way You Are and if you don't feel perfect just the way you are then change and become the perfect you and don't worry what the world thinks I know that sounds hard especially in this world at this day and age but that's what needs to change we have to stop worrying and living in fear about what the people around us are thinking! I say everybody just start being truthful with ourselves first and through that the truth will come... Much love to all and much love to you Nikki keep up the great work I'm sure you'll never see this but I hope you do!

    Lalena ConklinLalena ConklinPrije 9 dana
  • 😭😭😭😭😭 it is so exciting!! You are amazing person ❤

    Tanya K.BeckermanTanya K.BeckermanPrije 9 dana

    Michelle LeuchMichelle LeuchPrije 9 dana
  • Brave beautiful woman. 💜💜💜

    Brianna BodinBrianna BodinPrije 10 dana
  • That was one of the most powerful things I have ever seen. I love you so much Nikki. You will FOREVER have my support and most importantly, love.

    Maddie SmithMaddie SmithPrije 10 dana
  • Can we talk about the remarkable not only mother, but woman Mama Tutorials is 🥰 Everyone needs a mom so loving, accepting and understanding 😍🥰

    Mayra MaciasMayra MaciasPrije 10 dana
  • The weird thing is..I still only see the woman Nikki. I’m trying my hardest to see someone else but I cannot because she’s truly walking in her actual truth.❤️

    Bae GoalsBae GoalsPrije 10 dana
  • So inspiring I love you even more, you’re amazing

    Zara Castellaz-FaicoZara Castellaz-FaicoPrije 10 dana
  • bro when she came out i was so so so excited. this is beautiful and i adore that she’s willing to let us all in on her story

    Brena BolickBrena BolickPrije 10 dana
  • I didn't know and now that I do it changed nothing. I love Nikki. I think she is wonderful.

    Stacy TrueshotStacy TrueshotPrije 10 dana
  • MiNd BlOwn 💥💣

    Seven VasquezSeven VasquezPrije 10 dana
  • ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

    Liz KunstLiz KunstPrije 10 dana
  • Nikki! 😢😍 this series was amazing and you are amazing 💜

    FranCat CreationsFranCat CreationsPrije 10 dana
  • I appreciate you 🥰

    Lady GraceLady GracePrije 11 dana
  • I want more. Nikkie is so real, brave and full of life. She is gorgeous. There was no big lie, it was just the past.

    NiknakNiknakPrije 11 dana
  • I love that track that is playing in your whip girl ;)

    Angelina FederleAngelina FederlePrije 11 dana
  • I love nikkie for how she is not bc of her gender i love her bc she is so tallented she is so entertaining and funny and she is perfect as a boy and as a girl we luv you nikkie 💗💗

    XxnothingxXXxnothingxXPrije 11 dana
  • Her voice now reminds me so much of Kathrine Heigls!

    MARZWERA06MARZWERA06Prije 11 dana
  • what an amazon mother, you are so bless this is amazing i will always will love my kids no matter what they want to be in life and i can understand your mother that love wow ❤️

    Jenny DiJenny DiPrije 11 dana
  • This is soooooo inspirational. have and always will be an empowered, beautiful women! Your past makes no difference. You are YOU. and thats.....amazing we love you girl

    Jessica JamesJessica JamesPrije 11 dana
  • Your layers helped me define my layers Thank you

    Galaxy LightGalaxy LightPrije 12 dana
  • Omg your mom is so supportive 🏳️‍🌈💞

    Iris DorhoutIris DorhoutPrije 12 dana
  • I hate whoever blackmailed her. This was none of our goddamned business. She should have been allowed to live her life as she was. She should have been allowed to have that peace.

    Luka RunningwolfLuka RunningwolfPrije 12 dana
    • I think it was the owners of toofaced

      nutmegvlogsnutmegvlogsPrije 17 sati
    • autogynephilia Sexuoeroticism linked to the thought or image of oneself as female. Autogynephilia defines a transsexual typology and provides a theory of transsexual motivation: as Ray Blanchard proposed, male to female (MtF) transsexuals are either sexually attracted exclusively to men (homosexual) or are sexually attracted primarily to the thought or image of themselves as female (autogynephilic), and that autogynephilic transsexuals seek sex reassignment to actualise their autogynephilic desires. Blanchard’s types of autogynephilia • Transvestic-Fantasy of wearing women's clothing. • Behavioural-Fantasy of engaging in typical feminine behaviour (e.g., knitting with women). • Physiologic-Fantasy of pregnancy, breast feeding, menstruating. • Anatomic-Fantasy of having a woman's body, including partial autogynephilia, where the focus is on a mix of male and female body parts.

      MommyhustlesharderMommyhustlesharderPrije 5 dana
  • Nandipa NdlovuNandipa NdlovuPrije 12 dana
  • She is soooo gorgeous ! Keep going girl love you!

    Stephanie MurpheyStephanie MurpheyPrije 12 dana
  • You're BEATIFUL girl, be you. Dont be afraid ❤

    Camila DellasantaCamila DellasantaPrije 12 dana
  • Mad props to Nikkie’s mom. Saskia Spee allowed and encouraged Nikkie to become who she wanted to be. ❤️

    Pirkko DavisPirkko DavisPrije 12 dana
  • Beautiful.

    Janet JjJanet JjPrije 13 dana
  • Balling.

    Kristen AubinKristen AubinPrije 13 dana
  • Kudo's to you for being strong, beautiful and living your best inspire so many people so shake off the haters because you' are a star!!

    Sheara 46Sheara 46Prije 13 dana
  • NIKKIE!!! I would have never guessed but your story is unique and has molded you into who you are. Be proud of it. You are so amazing and such an inspiration. This is seriously incredible. Love you so much. 💓💓 It’s amazing to see you at your highest feeling great and on your way to even more amazing things. 💓💓

    Chelsea Bree AnnChelsea Bree AnnPrije 13 dana
  • I went and watched a lot of your videos from when you were younger!! Such a beautiful beautiful soul......I have not gone through the things you have in your life BUT you have still INSPIRED are truly beautiful inside and out..... Thank you Nikki thank you!!!! And KEEP SHINING

    tara pettigrewtara pettigrewPrije 13 dana